FUCK

Im better off alone

Baby baby yeeaaah

Its been a while since I cut my hair short(about 4 months actually).Gah it is actually nice,walking and my head feels soooooo liight olredi huuhuuhuuh but then Puan Juliana said my hair still a bit long and said she doesnt like to see the 'ekor' hahahaha well I guess she's right, my 'ekor' does seem long.She's the only one who managed to took care of me along this past two years although how annoying,pressumptios,loud,lack of respect,undiscipline and many more to her(sorry teacher) but yet she's still nice to us(believe me she's have a loooooot of patience) and I felt very very dissapointed with the school's changes in subject teachers when she got promoted(haaaiiih).Oh yeah Im skipping the luar sidang for agama today while unconciously my teacher watched me walking my way out of the gate(Im dead) well I think im gonna skip school tommorrow by the usual alasan "I 'm Sick" hahaha

Fakyup

Do I have to tell?
or do I have to speak?
Or both,but I know they wont listen,
cause I'm merely a person,
stand in a million,tried to escape my own intriguing destiny

People said they would stayed,but in due time,
they will all glide with the wind,leaving me alone,
wonder,if they will come back?
I doubt they will, cause each of them has finally found their own happiness,
who am I to judge or to make them stayed?

How long do I have to live in my own lies?
How long they have to pretend to care?listen?or loved?
when they got their own person to care,listen and loved to,
I'm just their wall,protecting them from the cruel world,
while who's protecting me?
and eventually I will be destroyed and fall both inside and outside

I'm a failure,maybe thats right word for me,
but at least I've tried to keep the ups and downs of my life,
but its alright,at least I know they are happy,
Am i satisfied?to be honest,a simple 'NO' will answered it all,
cause I know there are others who need me,and eventually like them,
left me for something worth pursuit,

I know who I am,
or at least I thought I know,
I'm just a person who put colours in their lives,
to be short I'm a painter,who paints fireworks in their world,
I,of course not a God,cause God is a shapeshifting destiny,
while I am merely just a shadow of peoples happiness,
watching them happy,have a good ending,something thats relevant with a miracle

Watching all that,studying them how they enjoyed their happiness,
triggered me,something that I should have asked myself a long time ago,
which now I have to guts to asked myself
When will I be happy?,when will my candle finally lighted up?when will they finally stayed?
and me,myself and I havent the guts to answered it,
I know I cant answered my own question,

cause I have to find it on my own...

Lalalalala

DAMN ITT CHORUS LINEE URE SO FUCCKINNG GAYYYY hahaha but its fun to watch though :D

Uncomfortable

Today was a Boring day with a capital 'B'.Maaaannn like semua matapelajaran ari tok I didnt do their freakin homework then the ustazah marah2 x hantar folio xhantar kerja laaa.Heeeellllloooo you freakin morons you all have very distinguished taste about givin homework maannn adakah sampe 5 pages!? WE got freakin life you freakin freaaak nasib baik some of the teacher ada consider others well look's like Im not the only one who's mad(sees below)




Aside of that,me and rahim managed to kill sometime by planning our kawen um um future :D
so me and rahim plant that abis kawen we tinggal dekat2 along with wan,aden,sen probably yen tooo.Soo senang2 klak lepak naaaakkk hahahaha Desperate Husband along with arthur hahahahahahaha.*Sighhh unlike any of them mok kawen 25+ me like mok kawen masa umur 40 hahahaha PARTI BUJANG LOKKKK